The time is coming......

God has been preparing me and my heart for what is about to happen for several years now. God has taken me back through my past and has healed me from so many things. During this time I have been through alot and learned alot. I went through a Celerate Recovery Class and then ended up teaching the Celebrate Recovery class with my husband. Along with counseling and parenting classes at the Christian Home for Troubled teens where my son was for several years. I had the most amazing counselor, he helped our marriage and with healing of old wounds. He is an amazing man of God. I told my story of my life to the group of ladies in the class that I was teaching. It was very hard because I was opening my whole life up to be judged by them. I shared with them the good, bad, ugly and the things you do not want anyone to know about you. God had put it in my heart to share that because I really wanted these ladies to experience the freeing God can do from your past.......the healing that He can do, no matter your past. I wanted them to get real in their recovery process and I had to be bold and go first. When I did that it opened up doors and they got it. I was still a work in progress and I felt like God wanted me to do a Bible study group at home with some ladies from church. But I had never been to a bible study before what do I know about doing one. But because I was working on things of my past and feeling more and more alive I wanted to share that and help others experience the same freedom from the bondage. I had so many different ideas of what I wanted to do and things to say, but I never pursued it. Then we moved and I had to change churches and I did not know anyone, so how could I have womens group and I did not know anyone. Then we moved to Raleigh NC, then we moved to Salem Va, then we ended up back in Florida because our house flooded. I was staying with a lady that would never come to our class and I wanted to reach out and a few others that had left the church, and I had heard of Breaking Free by Beth Moore, and I thought I was suppose to get some ladies I knew and do that study. But not only was it too expensive for me to buy at the time, I did not have that kind of time and weeks to spend in Florida to do that. So I just forgot about it. Then I was blessed to spend some time with an old dear friend and go to church with her family and fellowship with her. Then something told me, maybe it was there in Augsusta I was suppose to do this, but what can I do in a day, I dont live here and I can't stay for weeks to do an actual study. I just put it in the back of my mind and went on. Then we are back in Virgina getting settled in our new home. I talked with several people and still going through some healing of old wounds that I did not know was there and one night it hit me like a ton of bricks. I finally knew the answer after over 2yrs of being prepared by God.
It was not the place I thought it was suppose to be, it was not the bible study I thought it should be, it was not with the ladies that I thought it was suppose to be............it is suppose to be in Augusta, my story, with people from my past........................at first I did not know whom I was to invite and still not fully sure of all. These people were a part of my past, but they were not a part of the pain or heart ache. They knew me then, and they know me now or a little bit of me now.
When God is in control things fall in place. My plan.......said "ok, Augusta, ok ladies, NO WAY TO THE SUBJECT"..............some know part of my story, some know none, and alot I have never ever told. There is healing when we bring those things out of the dark and expose them to the light. The more you tell the more healing. God has not called us all to go public with our life story. But if he calls you do to it, you better get prepared.